I don't think I've ever really understood this somewhat cliche phrase, but it hit me all of the sudden last night at work. Everything always changes, but it changes the same way it has always changed, and will continue to change.
This applies to work, very well right now, but it also applies to other areas of my life. Most significantly right now would be the way people come and go from my life. Maybe it's this way with everyone, or maybe I really do have more people drift away from me than is normal. I don't know.
I remember a few years ago, I found two songs that, when put together expressed exactly how I felt about this:
BarlowGirl's "Pedestal" and Michelle Branch's "Goodbye To You"
I have a tendency to put people on a pedestal - I expect more of them than is fair, and sooner or later they end up letting me down. I then blame them for this, which is not fair because they are only human, we all make mistakes, and most importantly, I had no business expecting so much of them in the first place.
When I listen to "Pedestal" now, I hear it differently. Instead of thinking about all the people who have let me down in the past, I hear a promise that God will not let me down, no matter how many other people have.
God is always there, even when I don't want to think about Him.
That is really an incredible promise. Why do I continue to put my faith in mere humans who will always let me down (even when they don't intend to - no one can live up to my expectations of them. I'm pretty sure it simply is not possible.) when God is right here and wants nothing more than for me to put all of my faith and trust in Him.
On another note, this issue I have been dealing with for the past week and a half or so is getting a little bit easier to push away. I don't have the courage or the guts to even try to get it out of my life for good, but I think I'm getting closer to that point now. Prayers would be appreciated in this area. I don't have the strength, but I know that God does.
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Your posts always encourage me. Thank you for writing them.
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